Thought 17.

Aww, Im so glad Im one of those people who like to keep memories of days/people or things.

If I have a really good day, and I want to remember everything from it, I usually write it on microsoft word or something so I can save it, I know its probably not the best option but oh well :)

Since Im using my old laptop again ive been looking through all my documents/pictures from last year's through the summer holidays and upto when my laptop broke. Random little gig days, getting to meet new people, and the people I had in my life then :) :) first time out in consett/town. Im glad I do this, its nice to sometimes look back.

Kinda makes me excited for the holidays this year with the people I have in my life right now :)

Thought 16

I had this proper random thought last night whilst I was watching tv, and I dont even know why I thought of it at the time because it was weird. But I just cant stop imagining if it was this way, or if people have thought it too. So I thought I might aswell blog a little about it :)

I dont even know how to start it off, I feel so awkward, its crazy that a blog is making me feel awkward. o.O

Hmm, imagine if we all started off without looking what we look like, just like plain janes/johns. And since everyone is always like 'its about personalties' and all that shizzz. If we all just kinda look the same and then we get to know each other for who we are then it would be so much easier for who everyone wants to be/want to be with. You cant change, but your personality makes your more prettier. And the whole sexual attraction thing, you can find it by finding the personality that you want most. Bearing in mind that you wont know any difference because we were born this way.

Emma random thought of the two days.

I also wanted to talk about expectations, but Ill save that for another day leeek. Im scared my computer will shout at me and then blow up in my face, because its decided to play a game with me. But I wont let in win, because its a Computer and Im human. And me and Will Smith are best friends :)

Thought 15

Hmmm what to write in this blog.
My names not Emma it's actually santino and I'm Spanish and I'm a massive slug. I'm kidding, I don't even know why I said that its just one of those little thoughts of craziness.
I love chicken and cheese leek. Imagine a life without chicken or cheese. The food would be so shit I think I'd just eat dog food or something.
I've came to realise that my music taste is actually awful like what was I thinking!? I've recently been introduced to some good music though they're called The Pigeon Detectives and they are actually so good unlike any of the crap I usually listen to.
Also I say i like films but really I hate them, like life of pi for example, it's actually reeeeeaaaally shit, it's more of a spectacle than a film. I said I didn't like Argo when I went to see it and annoyed people by playing on my phone instead, it's actually a really good film and everyone should watch it.
I actually can't wait for Friday! Ill be off college for Easter and ill be going out with my best pal pal pal pals cos I'm a top McWorker and all that shizz!
I'm going to finish this blog with a quote again cos YOLO :)
"You miss 100% of chances you don't take"

Thought 14

I actually have no idea what to write about, but I want to write something just because of memories and all that kinda shizz. Well I know what to write about, but I cant even write about it because there will be no point writing about it, and I cant even write about it anyways because no one will probably actually care what I write about.

Is it just me thinking recently or do people ever wonder how many people notice you? but you don't notice them..because you are too busy noticing someone that will never notice you? Such a weird mind mine is.

But all I really want to do is go to a petrol station and smell some petrol! :')

This blog has been about nothing, Its just a messed up little blogg, just kinda like lifee atm :)

“It's important in life to conclude things properly. Only then can you let go. Otherwise you are left with words you should have said but never did, and your heart is heavy with remorse.”
― Yann Martel, Life of Pi

Thought 13

I know people think that some horroscopes are a load of rubbish and I kinda do believe it but Im intrested in some of the things that they say. Plus the ones that Ive got scarily fit the situation Im in, crazy or what. Like look, yesterdays one for me was:

You are in a period of questioning Pisces, and this is going to involve directly with your romantic affairs. Today is a day where you are going to question past decisions and choices you made when it comes to romance, and you will find yourself wondering if someone in your present life on an everyday basis is really worth all of the trouble they are causing. You can easily do a little pruning today when it comes to slackers in your social or romantic life, and you will find that letting go will bring you more satisfaction than these romantic suitors initially promise. Now is the time for you to return to that situation from your past that gave you the most romantic and intrinsic satisfaction at every level. You know where you can find your fresh air today, and the person who has it to offer will be more than happy to oblige in the company of your air today.

and todays was one of the reasons why I decided to write this, as it also does scairly fit me again:

You are going through a rather intense period when it comes to love, Pisces, so today may not be a bad day to just take a break. Whether you are single or attached, this situation that is so intense for you does not seem to be going away any time soon, so taking a break will actually do you both some good. You need and desire cooperative and harmonious relationships, and you know that this is possible with this one person, but the emotions surrounding this situation are too intense on both sides. You can just relax today and be social and friendly and you won't make too many waves with romance today. Tomorrow however, you can use this intense emotional energy to find a situation that works best for all parties, as the other party is certainly considering the same thing.


Maybe tonight when Im out in Consett I should just take a break from everything and have fun, maybe I can have a 18th party thing without hearing/seeing things I dont want too :) either way Im getting off my face.

Thought 12.

Fiveee days left til I turn 18 :) fair to say I'm excited and I feel like a little girl excited for Christmas or something! Hopefully my cold/illness will be gone by then, its seems to have got worse today, but I cant complain because there are people out there who have there legs chopped off and put on other peoples legs, imagine that though, your leg wouldn't even work, it would just be there o.O 

This week has been pretty fun :) went by so quick, but I enjoyed the end of it more :) 

Isn't life just weird and crazy, then when you find people who actually can make you happy and make life easier for you, I dont think anyone should give up on them having them in there life :) I dont think you should stay sad about something for long, if you cant change it - dont bother trying to work out different things in your mind. Just watch some random Crabstickz videos and then be happy again :) alsoo I found having chicken and cheese is a massive comforter aswell! 

Im happy that im starting to feel more like me again, I guess I'm happy that I'm happy Emma again :) I really needed this week ^_^ 

Plus this time next week I will most likely be 18, off my face, and talking to some random person who I will most likely just laugh at there dancing :) 

Also how great is this song? http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vjncyiuwwXQ

Thought 11.

I dont really know what to write about, but I'm writing this anyways with something in mind, so I actually do know what I'm going to write about but I'm just saying all of this as a way to kinda make it seem like I have wrote something and just to start me off....yeaaaahhhh. o.O

Is it weird to just enjoy being alone for a little bit? Like you've been surrounding and talking to people loads and just to go home and not talk or see anyone and just read or even watch films or browse YouTube. I enjoy it, I enjoy being with my own thoughts, makes you think things through a little. Maybe I'm alone in this I dont know. Now I'm not saying that I always want to be alone, because where would the fun be in that? plus I love peoples company and finding out there personalities. I dont even know if I'm making sense or not. It does to me I guess :)

Im soooooo procrastinating my media again, even though I enjoy doing it....I dont even know myself sometimes :')

Side note: Theres someone who has came back into my life recently, we use to be really close. Have midnight walks in Consett park and everything, I'm sure one time he said he wasn't even scared of anything yet when a bus pulled up be side him he actually jumped out of his skin. Actually so funny. He is a pretty awesome friend like. I guess I'm writing about him because he said something to me yesterday which oddly inspired me :) I guess I love inspiring people, and I'm drawn to people like that :) And he gives the best hugs ever ^_^