You know what I find crazy? the fact that you can go from being so close to someone to feel yourself drifting away, but no one stops it because they dont want to acknowledge the fact that its happening. And if you are lucky enough to find someone even if they are a friend doesn't have to be a interest, then it makes you feel good when they do in fact do everything to stop it, but it is a two way process.
When people you become close too, start to lose out on the values that you wanted them for, you start to look for other people to take their place. I use to be close to someone last year, At the time I had fell out with my best friend, but gained a amazing one by doing this. Sometimes things like this happen so things fall together. He was there for me, and we were pretty close, one thing Ill always remember is the fact that he could just make me laugh at everything. He was like the boy version of me, but we argued so much, just like brother and sisters. There was one time, were we argued and just walked together in silence for ages, both stubborn, then just burst out laughing and it was normal again, I liked that. But then things got weird, and we just drifted apart. I see him occasionally in college, but its just like the typical 'hello' Its really sad I think, to be so close to someone and then not be. But at the same time, I think that if this hadn't of happened, then I wouldn't of went to someone else to fill up the little best friend gap. He will always be my favourite person that I have ever met inside of college though.
We all have different people in our lives, for different reasons of what we need. I think in ways you can survive alone many people have, but its sooo nice to meet different people, and when you find nice friends they bring out the best in you and you feel good.
Just remember not to always live inside your head :)
Totally not writing about trust either :)
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