Awww, today has been so shitty. I just kinda feel like drained and sad. But I dont even know why, I feel like I want to kinda just run for so long, and push lots of things whilst running. Plus a massive spider decided to attack me whilst I was brushing my teeth. Which reminds me I was walking to work, and I saw a spider flying!!! I was like what the fuck is this world coming tooo!!!!
But yeaaaah, College is soo stressful, I just dont want to go any more the only thing I enjoy is Media, and the odd crime and deviance lesson. Its so hard finding motivation for something you just dont want to do any more I wish I could go back to 16 year old Emma and be like do not do A levels!! And its not even the people at college any more that I want to go for, there is like a group of us, and I love being there friends. But like I guess in ways college just reminds me to much of last year, and It doesn't help that I see everyone all the time. Crazy how things change.
Just feeeel likeeee a massive pile of mess, feel like crying, but im not going to, because its not like anything has went wrong today, at all, in fact its just been a normal day, but I dont think its a good thing to keep everything bottled. And I know I'm not any more as I have wrote this, but my blog is kinda turned into a little diary, which its strange how its easier to type than write. ahhh, I'm just talking random bullshizz. Maybe I'm just realising a few things, and its sucky. Maybe Im just moaning. I'm so confused, or emotional. I would love to know :) I think I'm just being a woman!
I hate moaning, I feel really bad, so I apologise for anyone reading this :)
I think today has just been one of those days.
SideNote: met someone random on the bus today, we ended up talking about how people should sit on windowsills of the bus, as it will create more room, for like ages, talking about different dimensions and stuff. Soo weird and crazy :') Dont even know his name haha. Hopefully Ill see him again :)
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