Thought 4.

Haven't posted a blog thing in a while, well its because I was busy!! Busy doing nothing, barring spending wonderful hours at work :)  However both days were enjoyable, but so tiring. Also I didn't dream last night, which is so weird for me!!! maybe I dont dream when I'm tired...who knows o.o Only me I guess, but I dont. 

Well I said the other day that I was going to write about trust, I guess this is the best opportunity to do it :) 

It so hard for me to trust people, I'm not playing the whole cry me a river game. I know most likely everyone finds it hard to trust people, that's why we just give everyone chances. And then you build up a little wall at first & if they're great then you are so happy that you can finally say you trust them. But even one little thing can ruin it, and when it does it feels like you cant trust them the same, then it sucks because you thought you could. You look back at the thing they done, and feel shit.

I think in ways this is just because in the past I've been let down, so I'm always like every time something is planned or is going to happen I always worry that its not going to happen, they will bail or it will just happen again. However now a days, I'm starting to not feel like this at all. I think its all down to having really good people in my life at the moment :) 

Why all of a sudden is my blog turning into a little diary! 

I feel so agitated tonight too o.O 

There is one thing happening in my life, which is making me all like confused and shit but I kinda dont want to not have it, if that makes any sense. All though sooon things may change. *scary cryptic shizz!!*